When I began blogging late one night last January my heart raced. I had no idea where I was going. I just knew I had to begin the journey. That is one thing I believe we share, the excitement of creation in our own journalistic world.
People often express quite eloquently what blogging has meant to them and I easily follow the template laid before me. Perhaps because I am trying to find a new place in my life and purpose on a daily basis I am looking at it with more introspection than I normally would or when I first began.
This is what has been bubbling up for me: I find writing for public view can make me feel very exposed at times as I tend to be free with my thoughts and words. It is an insecurity I think must be present in everyone who gives a piece of themselves, their soul, for scrutiny, praise or intentional revolution whether in the written word or another art form.
Sometimes I am very pleased that I am able to convey my thoughts through the venue of writing and photography. Sometimes I am amazed I can learn a new technical trick by myself. Sometimes I am embarrassed by being too open with my emotions and personal information and that I am willing to share this with people I have not met face to face and sometimes I find myself concerned what these people must think of me for doing so. Sometimes I feel I must give a disclaimer and a light apology when telling others about my blog before they read it for all its ‘girlie pinkness’ and frivolousness which I know at times it can be. Sometimes I regret telling certain people about my blog because we have lost touch and although they can still access my life online the sharing is not reciprocal.
Like anything in life that has genuine worth and value there are checkpoints that let you know that it is. Learning a new way to navigate and express oneself should be filled with self-exploration or at least I hope it is for me. A part of me wants to go in a new blogging direction. Another part wants to stay where I am and continue to evolve here.I still have no idea where I’m headed but I do know I have to continue with the journey and I have valued being part of yours and loved you being part of mine.
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I think genuine and eloquent are exactly what you have captured on this blog. I have loved reading!
Thank you very much, HHB. Clearly I am having an identity crisis from being laid off from full-time motherhood. I miss my boys so much today I ache. 🙂 xoxo
Don’t you dare leave me!! I know how you feel about missing your boys. I know. xoxo
Oh Pink, this new phase must be a hard transition 🙁
And I do know what you mean, I grapple with the blog dilemmas… the self censor I must endure so as not to hurt any of my loved ones or betray their privacy or the judgement of those not so close to me if I find out that they read my blog.
The easiest part and the best?
Meeting so many nice people via my blog and learning so much about others from their blogs.
I love being a part of this community and like any- there are ups and downs.
Here’s to all the ups!!!
Yours being a top fav 🙂
Hey there!!!
I can certainly understand how you must be feeling. That feeling of what’s next, what I am supposed to do now? Those are all questions that keep rolling around in my head. Thank you for being so honest and sharing your thoughts not only with me but with all of us that enjoy your blog. Just know I find support in knowing that I am not the only MOM out there who feels like you do. Thank goodness for blogging!!
BroncoMom
You are one of the wittiest and most eloquent bloggers out there. I totally enjoy reading your “heart to hearts”, and as for the frivolous posts… well we all need a bit of that from time to time too. I consider you one of my BFF’s here in blogland and I appreciate you girl!
P101, P2, BroncoMom, SJN ~ Thank you soul sisters. For once I am rendered speechless. Your thoughtfulness and generosity is overwhelming. xoxoxoxo
Oh Miss Pink, this prompts me to come out from my usual lurking space and tell you how much I adore your blog – your writing style, your eloquence and your wit are all qualities many of us wish we possessed in the abundance you do….
Sending you a smile,
tp
P. Princess ~ Thank you for your kind and thoughtful words. It is so nice of you. I am so glad you lurk no more. 🙂 xoxo